Well my first social security check went in the bank yest.  Mixed feelings.  Am i now old, do people see me as old.  Guess so, but i don't feel old.  I can't even capitalize my pronouns yet, i can't be old. or are the small i's more a reflection of my self image.  Interesting question.
Its not enough to live on but i am working enough to get buy.  Went to the food bank tho cause we are cash poor.  That was an embarrassing and humiliating experience.  Haven't done it since i was in college.  But they were very nice and said "we don't judge".  Food is food.  We are trying to cut down our supplies and some of our meals are kinda strange.  stuff doesn't all go together but we are finding out we don't need as much food as we thought, good deal huh?
We always learn a lot and find out amazing things about ourselves when we go through our poor periods so we don't worry, money has never been our primary concern in life.
We are having a garage sale in a couple weeks, that should bring in some dollars to use or save for new stuff, all of it might buy one new thing.  Life is interesting.
My doc yest injected a nerve in the bottom on my leg that goes into my foot.  It has been terribly sore.  it was the first problem i started out and he said this is progression as the last thing to fix is always the first thing that comes and all other stuff looks good.
He tells me my nerve problem is not in my head and I am not crazy, both these docs tell me that.  I probably lived in a fight or flight syndrome to much as a child and so i have this hyperactive nerve problem, or maybe something happened to me i don't remember (trauma).  Its not my fault and i have done what i could so now its time to deal with it.   (Not the inflamed nerve in my foot, tho that was caused by the slightest of pressure which then affects the muscles and nerves in my legs and etc)  Then i walk funny, and the body compensates which creates more pain.  My body interprets pain first and normal sensations are blocked back and when the pain gets controlled and managed then i will have the normal sensations. Thats why i am affected with fibromyalgia, a little chronic fatique, arthritis is an effect of over use, and sensitivities all over my body and skin.  They are learning all sorts of things now about chronic pain, its a new and groundbreaking field.
Well must go.  Three wild loose horses just went running by the house.  Beautiful but guess i better see if they need help catching them.  Loose horses and cattle and goats are not an uncommon site on whidbey.