I know where my days are going, I keep thinking it is 5th month. Good grief. I was just thinking today, when did I wake up and found I was old. It seems that I was me and then one day I awoke and I was old. I didn't feel it happening. But its like now I realize I am, tho inside I feel like I am in my 30's. How does the rest of the world deal with this. Wish my mom was around so I could talk with her about it. She would have some insightful thing to say I am sure. I don't know if the other girls had times like that with mom but she gave me some insightful thoughts and was there for some good conversations at times. She may have lacked a lot as a mother but she did the best she could with the skills and experience she had. Each one of kids had a different experience with her as we were farther apart in age and her life was different. Bonnie came along when she was young and she first married Dad. Kathy came along when things were bad but Glenn was around for her. I came along during that time but stayed as an adult with her cause I couldn't bear the fact of leaving her alone. Then I became the old maid who didn't date and we became friends and I was the typical kid who stays at home. I saw a different side of her than the other two did and they saw different things than I did. I couldn't bear leaving her, we were too close, but still I resented being the old maid stuck at home. Leroy entered my life and after God gave us a second chance, I left home with terrible pain of ripping myself away. So life was hard to adjust to but I have. I have now been a Fors longer than I was a Pembleton. I realize that this year is 50 years from high school graduation and 37 years since I left college. I have left time left than I have behind me. All my dreams and hopes are probably unachievable now. But......... I still have things I want to do. I still want to lose weight and get my body back in some shape. I don't want to be a fat old lady who waddles around and people ignore. I want to be active and full of life and looking like I still have some spunk. I still want to do things and experience things and make the most out of the time I have left. I am not willing to sit and wait for it to come.
But my new knees get stiff and I eat to much and sit to much and totally become my own worse enemy. I wonder what is ahead in my future. Oh if we only could see, but maybe that would take out the adventure and the suspense and maybe the chance at happiness if we knew. We don't like to think about the pain or heartache that we might have to face, we want life easy and perfect and no problems. But it ain't so, don't happen that way. Life has ups and downs and we need to go over them like when we were young and in a car and over the hill fast and the butterfly's in your tummy when you flew oer the hill. You may have been going down hill but what a ride. Going up hill is like my driving my old ford up the mountain. Too steep and on a narrow road and a straight stick. Too many peddles and not enough feet, thank Goodness I had a friend to help me. Or when my old buddy from high school was teaching me to drive and I would get to the top of the hill and would stop because i couldn't see the road and he had to teach me to trust the road was there. Life is kinda like all that. Ups and downs and never knowing whats ahead.
Well aren't I philosophical tonight aren't I?
Tonight We are in Delphi LA at the Poverty Point State Park. I don't know what it will cost but it may be free for senior citizens. If it is that or cheap we may stay another nite. It is so well kept, the grass mowed, the sites large, lots of trails, not busy. You get here and you just go whew, its so great.
We left Shreveport this am after I had to wash some dog bedding and Leroy washed a small dog. Iris puked on the comforter on the bed and diesel had an accident in his bed cause Leroy wouldn't take him out when he woke up. So after that we hit the road. But had to find a quilt store in Minden that ended up being a long way out of the way on country roads, narrow country roads, and a confusing different way back. Anyhow, Leroy didn't seem to mind and then we were on our way to Rusten where we went to another quilt store. That was fun. It was run by the sweetest little southern lady. I got the piece I went in for, then as I walked out I found two pieces that were the complement pieces to another I had bought.Then I admired another quilt as I am leaving and Leroy comes in. She ends up talking him into it so I have to buy the layer cake that makes it. Good grief. She also almost sold me a small machine to take to classes. So anyhow we really got a taste of the people in that town. I walked across and down the street with another lady who talked and talked, nice lady. So then we stopped next door at the Sundown Bar and had a sandwich. I had a patty melt and didn't like the cheese on it, but the homemade french fries were delicious. Leroy had a meatball sandwich with onion rings. I tasted one of the onion rings, wow. He said the meatball po-boy was delicious. After that we went out of town so I could stop at a coffee place they suggested, and get a coffee and some beignets. That sounds like ben yays but its the Louisiana state donut. They are so good and its the first I had a chance to have them here. They are like a big puffy square with air inside that tastes something like fry bread and its rolled in powdered sugar. These today were tougher than I have tasted in New Orleans, those just melted in your mouth. we had to hit the road so we missed the other two quilt shops i wanted to go to because it was to late in the day. Oh well, there are others.
So we sat outside tonight until the good old Midwestern mosquitoes drove us in. We will decide tomorrow what we should do next.
Oh this morning the funniest thing happened. I came back to the camper and Leroy wasn't inside. I came in and saw some sprigs of paper on the floor but thought I had just missed them when I cleaned up. I started down the hall and all of a sudden a fluttering behind me and a little bird landed on my shoulder. My little fellow got himself out of his cage and was having a nice time out. With the dogs I must mention. The one door had not been closed correctly and that little stinker is a real Houdini and he got himself out. WE have to be really careful. Its his third or fourth time of doing that, little shit. I had almost left the RV door open too, so the chances for it to have been worse could have been so much worse.
We didn't make it to church Sun to our distress. We couldn't find the church we were looking for in time. So since it rained all day, hard at times we went to the casino to eat and then spent the day at home just hanging out, and reading and etc. Sat we went to a quilt store and looked around a bit. We went on a long walk as Shreveport/Bossier have a long trails on both of the river. It was a really nice walk. We went about 3 miles, and poor diesel couldn't handle it all so I took my shirt and we made a sling and he rode the rest of the way home.
Well those of you that are reading this are most likely bored to death. Oh well, no one is forcing you.
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